English Letter to x
Hello. my x has a boyfriend,and she was unfaithfull by kissing him few days before breakup. we broke up for 3 weeks ago. she told me we had amazing sex, that I was the best etc, but last month I dident felt we "made love", but more that I stimulated her to orgasme and then came myself. I told her, and she said she was enjoying, but in the end I even stopped sex because it dident seemed she wanted ME, but just the stimmulation. we had a good relationship, was together about 2 years, and was in about 10 countries. Im thinking to send a letter, and if you have time I would appreciate your opinion.
its...
Hello D
How are you doin! ;-)
I hope its going good for you and your family as well. Sometimes I miss all of you, and the time we had together, and the other day I just thought about things which I never really said to you.
After the breakup, I was very surpriced how I could get over it so fast. How I could start putting focus on new things, and be so full of happiness. I quit my football manager game, started to do more sports, keeping tight to my goals and dreams again - things which I slowly forgot to do when we were together, which was my own fall, but I started to take responsibilty for my own life again (congratulation R). I realized that I often blamed you for blaming me, instaed of just admitting that YES I AM bad in remembering what you said, YES I AM bad in putting atttention when you tryid to get it. I blamed you for not accepting me for how I was, and I hided my love to you, and that comes from a feeling of fear. When we were friends and in the beginning, you were right about that I was much better in putting attention and focusing on what you said. I cant do anything about that now, so I wont think about it, I just wanted you to know.
And even I think that what you have done was very unfaithfull, and something I never would had done like this, and completely out of my view of life, I know that we are free people, free to live the life we want and dream about, and that we cant always control our feelings. For me unfaithfullness is bad, but to follow your heart is the best you ever can do. You did both, but if that what it takes to be happy, Its not worth of regreting the way it happend or thinking that you been a bad girl as you said you felt you were - no you did a bad thing, but you followed your heart to be happy, and thats not stupid, thats braveness! I know your heart is good, and you should also know that I want you to be happy.
I remember some words from the first song you send me "It takes some bad to make some good - life is wonderfull" and thats so true. We needed that breakup to move on and both be fully happy again!
Today Im working in a SFO in K, Im taking care of children, playing outside, doing drama and helping with homework... so thats the job I got.
I have many speciel memories with you, and Im smiling with thoughts of us reading loving mails, listening songs, kissing in the airport, , feeling the first tears of happiness, massaging our bodies in oil, traveling around, having sex and shared orgasm with me inside u at the collegie, on my black chair, in my broken bed, at my aunts flat that day on the floor, our flat, Alicante, in the nature at picnick, at my doctor fantasi office, and so many nice exiting, erotic times together. You were my absolutly top viagra!!!
Sometimes I showed I needed your love, instead of showing my own love to you, and I could see you got hurt if I moved to the side of the bed before sleep, I could see you got hurt if I stopped sex just because I felt you dident showed enough, that you got tears in your eyes when I screamed of you, and I see now that it was all actions and scream of needing your love, it was the way I showed you when I felt that you dident loved me as much as me you.
In the best Michael Scolfield style, I'll give you this swane on a surfboard as symbol of our time together. In spite of some bad moments, tears and cryings, it was a deep loving relationship for me. I cryed of happiness, I felt the words from your sending songs, I made my own songs from love, and I wanted you more than any other girl in this world. Its also a symbol of new beginning - let the waves of love follow your way, let your beauty from the person you are shine like a swan, your eyes glow of happiness, and your dreams come true. Dont count the number of moments you breath, but the moments which takes the breath away from you.
I wish you all the best in the future.
R
its...
Hello D
How are you doin! ;-)
I hope its going good for you and your family as well. Sometimes I miss all of you, and the time we had together, and the other day I just thought about things which I never really said to you.
After the breakup, I was very surpriced how I could get over it so fast. How I could start putting focus on new things, and be so full of happiness. I quit my football manager game, started to do more sports, keeping tight to my goals and dreams again - things which I slowly forgot to do when we were together, which was my own fall, but I started to take responsibilty for my own life again (congratulation R). I realized that I often blamed you for blaming me, instaed of just admitting that YES I AM bad in remembering what you said, YES I AM bad in putting atttention when you tryid to get it. I blamed you for not accepting me for how I was, and I hided my love to you, and that comes from a feeling of fear. When we were friends and in the beginning, you were right about that I was much better in putting attention and focusing on what you said. I cant do anything about that now, so I wont think about it, I just wanted you to know.
And even I think that what you have done was very unfaithfull, and something I never would had done like this, and completely out of my view of life, I know that we are free people, free to live the life we want and dream about, and that we cant always control our feelings. For me unfaithfullness is bad, but to follow your heart is the best you ever can do. You did both, but if that what it takes to be happy, Its not worth of regreting the way it happend or thinking that you been a bad girl as you said you felt you were - no you did a bad thing, but you followed your heart to be happy, and thats not stupid, thats braveness! I know your heart is good, and you should also know that I want you to be happy.
I remember some words from the first song you send me "It takes some bad to make some good - life is wonderfull" and thats so true. We needed that breakup to move on and both be fully happy again!
Today Im working in a SFO in K, Im taking care of children, playing outside, doing drama and helping with homework... so thats the job I got.
I have many speciel memories with you, and Im smiling with thoughts of us reading loving mails, listening songs, kissing in the airport, , feeling the first tears of happiness, massaging our bodies in oil, traveling around, having sex and shared orgasm with me inside u at the collegie, on my black chair, in my broken bed, at my aunts flat that day on the floor, our flat, Alicante, in the nature at picnick, at my doctor fantasi office, and so many nice exiting, erotic times together. You were my absolutly top viagra!!!
Sometimes I showed I needed your love, instead of showing my own love to you, and I could see you got hurt if I moved to the side of the bed before sleep, I could see you got hurt if I stopped sex just because I felt you dident showed enough, that you got tears in your eyes when I screamed of you, and I see now that it was all actions and scream of needing your love, it was the way I showed you when I felt that you dident loved me as much as me you.
In the best Michael Scolfield style, I'll give you this swane on a surfboard as symbol of our time together. In spite of some bad moments, tears and cryings, it was a deep loving relationship for me. I cryed of happiness, I felt the words from your sending songs, I made my own songs from love, and I wanted you more than any other girl in this world. Its also a symbol of new beginning - let the waves of love follow your way, let your beauty from the person you are shine like a swan, your eyes glow of happiness, and your dreams come true. Dont count the number of moments you breath, but the moments which takes the breath away from you.
I wish you all the best in the future.
R